Save me, please...

i think i want to wrote sumthin today but still dun hv any idea
my life doin great lately..
i guess avoiding 'it' is really a good action and solution after all
its about 2 weeks more before my final starts..
have to gave all out during the study week..
chaiyok chaiyok faa!!
u can do it gurl..
i want to prove than i am much more better than dat sucker..
i will have much more better life after my graduation because im much more better than him..
and his slut huhuhuhuhu..
but erything turn out so fine lately..
alhamdulilah..
last nite my best buddy, emah have a very private chat..
1st its all about her and didios, her bf..
and when turn to me..
she said im not who i am lately..
i trying to be somebody..
am i?
i kno i quite rude n selfish lately but am i try 2 be sombody..
she says im change alot..
even im much more prettier than before but my cute is already gone..
vanish somehow..
am i?
i always fake my smile these past few month
even when i try 2 smile from my heart..
it dosent work anymore...
i still crying from the bottom of my heart..
still suffer from the broken heart..
i change b name from ejard evil to cruel heart breaker in my name list
he is cruel all right..
i wish i just like him.. very strong and frank...
but still remember about him all the time..
y? hate to be in love again...
the feeling is hurt so damn much..
is diz love suppose to be huh?
crush + feelings=love but end up ruin my own life and almost ruin my future..
is diz what love is all about?
could someone tell me what love is all about..
i dun feel any good feelings bout love
i just feel the pain and the sorrow..
duh hate it..
i wanna be my self again..
the sweet fariza i used 2 b..
i wanna be me again..
i dun wanna be hot i just wanna be cute..
help me someone,
help me anybody..
just save me..
anyway, wish me luck for my final..
do pray for my victory my fellow fwens..

- Erza Ibrahim -