Aku pencemburu

Aku pengidap Minor OCD
Ini membuatkan aku peka terhadap sekeliling
Selain itu, aku juga merupakan manusia pelik
Di mana aku kuat cemburu tentang masa lalu

Duhai cinta hati, aku masih boleh tersenyem andai kau cuba tackle a hot girl that passed by
Tetapi aku akan freak out kalau kau bercakap tentang dia yang ada di masa lampaumu
Walaupu aku tahu kau dan aku 'tiada' lagi waktu itu
Tetapi itu lah aku, cemburu tentang benda sebegitu

Selain itu aku juga stalker teruk yang akan boleh korek segala maklumat selagi aku mahu
Kadang kadang aku rasa betul kata orang
Perempuan pencemburu merupaka seorang agent CSI yang paling terbaik
Kerana aku tak lepaskan setiap detail yang ada
Andai aku tengah gila

Duhai cinta hati, ku pohon kau sabarlah dengan karenah ku
Aku tahu aku tak sempurna mana
Harap kau terima kekuranganku ini
Aku akan cuba berubah menjadi yang lebih baik

Bukan hanya untuk kau
Bukan hanya untuk kita
Tetapi juga untuk diriku

Karena, less is more, less is better
The lesser you know, the leaser you get hurt
To much information can kills you

Erza Ibrahim

Stop complaining, be more grateful in life

Untuk kesekian kalinya, aku mengamuk pada student aku.

Setiap semester aku ckp aku tak nak jadi lecturer yang aktif dan nak berubah kepada pasif kerana kecewa dengan management kat sini tapi setiap sem juga aku antara yang aktif. Mungkin kerana itu adalah sifat semula jadi aku yang sentiasa cuba buat yang terbaik dan kesiankan student aku. Tetapi persoalannya, adakah mereka pernah kesiankan aku?

Untuk semester ini aku menjadi lebih garang,strict dan kerek dari sebelumnya, aku memantau ketat tentang kehadiran student dan tidak sesekali menerima surat bertulis sendiri hanya menerima MC yg sah dr klinik dan hospital. Okey, satu issue lagi timbul bila student ckp mereka tiada duit utk ke klinik hanya ada duit untuk ke klinik 1 Malaysia dan malangnya klinik tersebut tidak member MC, jd aku meminta resit ubat sbb ada tarikh kat situ, bukti mereka ambil ubat dan memang sakit.

Ketua Program aku meminta aku kesan problematic student, katanya. Tetapi apabila aku beritahu dia tentang problem student ni, dia ckp semua atas aku dan bila ada masalah aku pulak yang kena. Itu aku  sangatlah kecewa. Belum masuk aku kena luluskan student sbb takut bila xde student nanti kolej xdpt bayaran dari PTPTN. Senario kat sini adalah dimana student yang layak digagalkan tapi terpaksa diluluskan akibat arahan dari pihak atasan. Aku kecewa!

Tapi mama pujuk aku dengan cakap dari satu segi aku telah menolong menyelamatkan masa depan seorang manusia. Ya, mungkin betul! Tetapi adakah pelajar pelajar 'manja' ini tahu bahawa betapa kejamnya kehidupan di dunia sebenar? Mereka tahu bahawa kolej perlu meluluskan mereka jadi mereka tak takut pada kami yang menjadi lecturer. Dan untuk hari ini, aku mengamuk lagi untuk kelas yang sama. Aku kecewa, anak bangsa aku yang buat masalah.

Aku cuba dalam setiap daya aku untuk menolong mereka tapi apakan daya mereka sendiri tidak mahu ditolong. Apa yang mampu aku lakukan hanyalah terus bersabar dan berusaha menolong mereka. Aku kadang kadang ada perasaan tak redha pada mereka atas ilmu yang diajar tapi layak kah aku menghukum mereka? Aku juga manusia yang banyak berbuat salah, aku hidup lebih lama dari mereka dan itu bukan tiket aku untuk menghukum mereka,  mungkin dosa yang aku tanggung lebih banyak dari mereka, hanya Allah yang tahu.

Aku memilih untuk menjadi tenaga pengajar kerana minat aku, aku sangat mencintai kerjaya aku sebagai tenaga pengajar walau aku kecewa dengan sistem management di sini dan juga attitude pelajar. Tetapi aku masih tetap disini walau pernah ada tawaran yang lebih baik tetapi bila memikirkan aku harus meninggalkan pelajar - pelajar di sini pada pertengahan semester, hati aku lembut kembali dan in the end,i just continue dealing with the same shit every single day.

Aku mencintai kerjaya ini, aku tak tahu apa aku akan buat kalau aku berenti menjadi pendidik, aku tahu aku ada PR skill dan juga I'm good in handling people which I get this because I've been in hospitality front line for a few years and handling guest is a very tough thing to do but when I've become a lecturer, I really enjoy my job. So what I can do at this moment is continue life and stop complaint! Well, afterwords... Alhamdulillah aku masih diberikan rezeki dari Allah SWT

Stop complaining, be more grateful in life.....kan?

Erza Ibrahim

KATA KAU

KATA KAU AKU KAU PUJA

TETAPI KENAPA KAU PERGI PADANYA

KATA KAU AKU TIADA GANTI

TETAPI KENAPA DALAM SEMINGGU KAU TEMUI PENGGANTI

KATA KAU AKU LAH SEGALA

TETAPI KENAPA KAU LUPA

KATA KAU AKU LAH CINTA AKU LAH SAYANG

TETAPI KENAPA RASA ITU MENGHILANG

KATA KAU HATIMU MEMANG ADA AKU DARI DULU

TETAPI KENAPA KAU BERUBAH TERBURU BURU

APA YANG AKU RASA TAK PERNAH PENTING

JANJI APA KAU RASA SEMUA ITU PENTING

APA AKU LALUI TAK PERNAH KAU MERASAI

KAU CUMA TAHU MENYEPI

GANTUNG KITA TANPA TALI

AKU MENUNGGU KAU LAMA SEKALI

TAPI BILA AKU TELAH LALI

KAU MUNCUL KEMBALI

MENGHARAPKAN KITA SEPERTI YANG DAHULU

SEDANGKAN AKU YANG DULU TELAH BERLALU

BAGI AKU KINI TELAH TIADA GUNA BERSATU

KERANA ANTARA KITA SENTIASA ADA HANTU

DUA TAHUN MENUNGGU BUKAN SEKEJAP BAGI YANG MENANTI

MUNGKIN SEKEJAP BAGI KAU YANG SENTISA BERTUKAR GANTI

ANGGAPLAH AKU TELAH PERGI DAN TAK AKAN KEMBALI

ERZA IBRAHIM

Kata Kata

Kadang Kala Tidak Perlu Kata Pujangga Untuk Kita Gembira
Cukup Sekadar Ucapan "Selamat Pagi' Dari Dia
Hati Terus Berbunga :))

Erza Ibrahim

Sweet Venom Bitter Cure

A well traveled path colored by sighs.
I’ll get sucked into the crowd
count the dreams which somehow just vanished.

Friends my own age are starting families
everyone knows there are many outlooks on life,
you can still change sadness into gentleness and live.

So that I won’t lose and I won’t wilt
I’ll be a laughing blooming flower
When I find myself suddenly lost, I’ll collect the wind and
take to the sky, now.

Love can’t relate to you its philosophies and heated arguments.
all we can do is softly pray so this feeling doesn't fade away.
I wish not to be naive, to be held, to separate this sadness among us.

Because surely a life size me will be loved,
Even supposing its reckless, I’ll paint the ultimate dream
I don’t care if they laugh.

At last I understand it, even if everything is randomly destined.
Even if I have to bear a little risk, I want to try ! Love Love !

in my heart eternally that flower blooms.

I like you even it is forbidden

** something that i wrote to express my feelings toward a person :)
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I like you even it is forbidden

The look from your face light up my life

The smile from you made my world full’s of joy

To hear your laugh is also brighten my day

Your like a sunshine of my life

When I look at you every time you turn around

My heart stops by for a moment

When hearing your voice from a far, I stood still

Because I wish at least I can see you in a glance

I think I’m falling for you even I know it’s forbidden

I think I like you even the first time we meet

The way you talk, walk, move and go around made me malt, just in a second…

I think, I’m falling for you…

More and more…

Each day and every second of my life…

Dear Sir,

I like you even it is forbidden……

Feb 10^th, 2011

Thursday

Erza Ibrahim

Sitting, Waiting, Wishing

Sitting by the window and look outside

Searching for the best view that can make me feel more comfortable,

Hope that it will bring more peaceful in my heart

As I be in the middle of tornado

Seeing how is the world spin so fast in front of me

Watching how people can twist the things and make up stories

Crashing each others and made their life more miserable

As I waiting here all alone in the middle of the tornado

As I still trying to find the best view that can bring more peaceful to my heart

Searching for a new hope

For me, my self, my life, my future and people that I love the most

Trap here with heavy chain at my both hand, in the middle of tornado

Fells more miserable than ever, than anyone else here

I wish for a new direction in life

Wishing for a new hope in life

Looking for a new world to explore

Even I'm trap in this twisted world of tornado

But I will not give up

Hoping…..

Wishing…

Dreaming…

That one fine day, I will be out from here

And fly high above in the blue sky…. Like an eagle….

Dear ALLAH S.W.T,

Please give me peace in heart and made me a better person

And bring peaceful here…..

-Erza Ibrahim -

Money Money Money

Money money money, must be funny
in a rich man world...
well come back to think about money $$$$
money is not everything (for someone who has money)
but money is everything (for someone who doesn't has it)
i read an article about a confession from a lady says that;
"I rather suffer sitting at the back seat of a BMW than be happy riding a motorcycle"
See how money can control people and also can control feelings..
It's true!!! Girl tend to fall for someone to some who has extra in income the the ordinary...
Who don't want to be rich rite?
everybody want to have luxurious life with pocket full of money
but try to go back to our childhood time,
when you still a little boy and girl, when your teacher ask you what you want to be when you grown up?
I want to be a doctor, a pilot, a lawyer, a teacher, etc
hardly heard someone want to be a guard, cleaner, cashier, etc
It's not that I'm looking down at this job specific but since we were kids, we tend to choose to be something with a big income..
See how money play it's role since we don't know anything about money we already like something similar to big money...
Money money money....
think back how many percent of us be what we want to be when we was a kid,
as for me, i want to be a teacher but when i grow up see my mother working as a teacher, I'm not get into it anymore but after graduation I wish I am a teacher, at least I'm serving the community in my own way;
giving information to people.... and teacher got better paid and less working hours and more holidays than other job specification...
still money..... rite?
ngee ngee ngee

what you want to do in your life?

what you really want to do in your life?
satisfied with your life now?
not many would satisfied with what they have..
for me,
my dream.....
i want to be a host for discovery travel asia channel
so i can travel and visit places that I never ever think it might be existed
as well as I can give people knowledge about the places I've been and entertain them in the same time...
i want to be a photographer,
so I can take pictures of places I've been
take beautiful pictures of the world
captures beautiful moment of my life....
I want to be a writer,
so I can write the experience what I gain from my jobs
as well as delivered knowledge of travel to others
I want to be a Tourism Lecturer when i retired from being a host
so I still can give knowledge to other in a right way
as well as share my experience with others...

but the truth:
I only doing Public Relation for a Travel agent
Meet up guest, clients and supplier
as well as handling complaints..

I don't know how to achieve my dreams now
those days of dreaming are finally over
have to accept my life as it was
even i try hard to make it better
but it usually turn out to be ordinary

anybody know how can i make my dreams came true?

dream, dream, dream
event so hard to be true, but still hoping and dreaming
never stop believing
i hope, one fine day, I'll get what I deserve to be
Aminnnnn......

hello again.....

ok, its such a long time im not updating at all my blog especially since i lost my lappy...
here is it..
im back here..
there's alot of thing happen to me....
hahahahaha...
well, tell u what... senentiasa feeling xbetul especially sekarang...
rse job yg buat skrg cannot make me feel happy, looking for a better job, good paid n leh travel sne sini..
the truth is sgt nyesal k amek tourism because i cant go anywhere beside travel line n i just so freakin hate it rite now...
sebut je travel sume org akn terbayang, luxurious, travel there n here, happening life, njoy but the truth is its suck, trust me...
life yg xbest langsung travel line ni, bukan sume dapat peluang travel here n there n bukan dapat gaji bnyak pun ciput je, gaji bdk diploma holder lagi besorrr, seyes wa cakap lu...
nk je ckp, i nk better life wif better paid, uwaaaaaa!
nk smbung study lagik uhukk... owh what should i do seyes i want to be the person i wish to be..
i want job yg bukan hanya stay in office but travel here n there and sambil2 tu i nk menyumbangkan sesuatu pada masyarakat.....
aduhhhhh! helppp!!! huhuhuhu seyes menchiii life sekarang, umo makin meningkat tp i hv nuthing in life, if nk masuk travel agency, xyah de degree pn xpe buang masa je, baik masuk pas spm, keje elok2 je, kompem pas u guys de exprience, senang je nk demand gaji dr sehelai degree yg xleh demand langsung!!!! travel line sux!!!!!! hahahahahahaha

perhaps perhaps perhaps

Every time you tell me about her
how shes hurt you so much
how she's keep come and go in your life
but still, you love her
Every time I'll be there for you
light's up ur day
And makes you smile
and every single time i shout out in my heart
I'm not ur dream girl but I swear I just want u 2 b happy
I swear I'll take good care of you..
we're friends, that's for sure
you always be there for me no matter what
and i also be there for you my dear
but once, we already across our boundaries as friends,
regret?
I'm not sure...
even i keep myself from you but i can't lie to myself
i start falling for you
I start to love you more and more
more then just a friend..
how should i tell you this is all about?
how should i tell you, ur the one I've been waiting for?
being wif u is what i want to be...

perhaps, perhaps, perhaps